Lately, I feel so alone I don't even know why I have a phone Nobody hits me up and I'm stuck Never had someone that I could call my own It's lonely walking down this, road Fake friends that I didn't have to know The same ones that fucked me over and whenever I need them And I turn around, they just turn ghost I feel I'm at a all-time low I am depressed and it hurts me to know My ex is happy and I can't seem to cope She's ignoring every text message I wrote My anxiety is high, my medication is low I am so stressed and I hate being home I sit it over, think everything alone I wish I had somebody to hold, damn I'm sick and tired of putting up a front Like I'm happy but really I'm in a slump I try to stay strong, screaming "I don't give a fuck!" But if anybody will give it then I'm the one I wanna put down my walls and open up I hide behind this rapper I've become Addicted to being accepted's like a drug No one's here, I feel like I'm ready to plunge I remember you said my music was wack Teachers persuading me to try to give up my act They said, the image and the drive is what I lack Made me think maybe I could never be a part of rap Well I ignored that, I said fuck it and snapped Over 20 million plays, where are my haters at? I didn't need a label to give me a chance The day I sell out an arena, I feel like I'm the man Buzzin' hard, but to find nothing Never found someone who really loves me People coming around now 'cause I'm getting money A few plays later now they all see something The same guy that is from the start The same guy my ex left with a broken heart The same guy who turned music into his art The same seven year old who dreamt of being a star I'm 22, and I won't let myself down I stood up right after I fell down It's hard to see heaven when you know you're hellbound I never really opened up and that's until now I hope that I never lose you If I could choose one person, I would choose you I hope you understand my pain 'Cause that's something that we all got to go through I hate being down this road Been down before I feel like I need you more I'm so alone Once I was seven years old My future's all I'd imagine And now I'm here, and I look back and I'm screaming dammit This is a life I never planned it, no, I never planned it