You magnified the missing properties That I strove to find in this love of mine And you cut your hair and told me that I was blind When for the first time I finally felt like I could see in perfect resolution The conclusion of a beautiful mess Of mixed up priorities and downright lies That have reslentlessly placed pressure on my mind When I fell asleep at night I swore to love you until I die But I was afraid that when the casket shut There'd be no love left in this heart of mine Just and empty reflection of the day that you stopped trying When they write our romantic obituary And the public tries to read between the lines They might see me as the bad guy When I was just trying to survive I watched the walls of this house we built turn to sand Even in my darkest moments I tried to stand So when the walls caved in maybe I can understand The frivolous selection of words you chose to express with your hands As mines strike another cord as they land And soft ballet fills the room in your absence I came to realize that I was the sickness That plagued you when you cried When you saw forgiveness And my cold heart couldn't see you trying So I shifted the blame to another place And pretended that I was alright But to see you in his arms filled my veins with cyanide This is not a love song It's a confession of my sins Appropriated and indoctrinated an absolvement Of my refusal to let you back in When the cartoons turned to talk shows and I turned into him I let my mind erase the memories for fear that I began To drop the veil that hit my deepest fear The one they'd lower me below someday you'd follow But the earth would seamlessly undo what we had sewn And when the roots began to use our bodies as a throne I'd be a dandelion and you'd become a deadly rose And then your thorn would prick my stem and fill my body once again With rage and desperate attempts to try and finally make amends I saw that you had all the beauty Of the seeds that we had planted in our garden And that the lack of love I gave to show left something to be wanted I thought I'd slow dance to my own song at our wedding The sound of rising scales and belted chants to signify the ending Of troubled times we rectified when we'd say we're never parting Now it's a ghost of all the love you lost when you finally departed And I'm not mad If I was you I'd be standing there too Watching me buried in this garden I'd hoped that I become a rose and someday see a dandelion But oh, how sweet it'd be to prick my tongue And end it where it started To cut my words and snip my petals where they sprouted Because I magnified the missing properties that I strove to find In this love of mine When you cut your hair because you thought that I would hate it You were blind to the reason our love was ever created So drew the conclusion of a beautiful mess Of perfections and professions of love and infactuance I guess I'd wish I never fell in love if I knew that this would happen I swore to love you until I died But I was afraid that when the casket shut There'd be no love left in your heart Just the sudden realisation that I was a waste of all that time And you deserve to find your "happy" and hold him ever tight But I knew that I would never be him No matter how hard I tried