I'm sensitive, I feel everything, I feel everybody One man standing on two words, heal everybody Transformation, then reciprocation, karma must return Heal myself, secrets that I hide, buried in these words Death threats, ego must die, but I let it purge Pacify, broken pieces of me, it was all a blur Mother cried, put they hands on her, it was family ties I heard it all, I should've grabbed a gun, but I was only five I still feel it weighing on my heart, my first tough decision In the shadows clinging to my soul as my only critic Where's my faith? Told you I was Christian, but just not today I transformed, prayin' to the trees, God is taking shape My mother's mother followed me for years in her afterlife Staring at me on back of some buses, I wake up at night Loved her dearly, traded in my tears for a Range Rover Transformation, you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Ooh, I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself I remember looking in the mirror knowing I was gifted Only child, me for seven years, everything for Christmas Family ties, they accused my cousin, "Did he touch you Kendrick?" Never lied, but no one believed me when I said "He didn't" Frozen moments, still holding on it, hard to trust myself I started rhyming, coping mechanisms to lift up myself Talked to my lawyer, told me not to be so hard on myself He has an aura, I hope to achieve, if I find some help Congratulations, made it to be famous, still I feel uneasy Water watching, live my life in nature, only thing relieves me Spirit guide whisper in my ear tell me that she sees me "Did he touch you?" I said "No" again, still they didn't believe me Mother's brother said he got revenge for my mother's face Black and blue, the image of my queen that I can't erase 'Til this day can't look her in the eyes pain is taking over Blame myself, you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Ooh, I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself I was never high, I was never drunk, never out my mind I need control, they handed me some smoke, but still I declined I did it sober sitting with myself, I went through all emotions No dependents, except for one, let me bring you closer Intoxicated, there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention Insecurities that I project, sleeping with other women Whitney's hurt, the pure soul I know, I found her in the kitchen Asking God "Where did I lose myself? And can it be forgiven?" Broke me down, she looked me in my eyes, "Is there an addiction?" I said "No", but this time I lied, I knew that I can't fix it Pure soul, even in her pain, know she cared for me Gave me a number, said she recommended some therapy I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "No" I never knew she was violated in Chicago, I'm sympathetic Told me that she feared it happened to me, for my protection Though it never happened, she wouldn't agree Now I'm affected, 20 years later trauma has resurfaced, amplified As I write this song, I shiver 'cause I'm nervous I was five, questioning myself, 'lone for many years Nothing's wrong, just results on how them questions made me feel I made it home, seven years on tour, chasing manhood But Whitney's gone, by time you hear this song, she did all she could All those women gave me super powers, what I thought I lacked I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings I attract A conversation, not being addressed in black families The devastation haunting generations and humanity They raped our mothers, then they raped our sisters Then they made us watch, then made us rape each other Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered Still living as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance Every other brother has been compromised I know the secrets, every other rapper sexually abused I see 'em daily burying they pain in chains and tattoos So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how we move Learn how we cope, whenever his uncle had to walk him from school His anger grows deep in misogyny, this is post-traumatic Black families and a sodomy, today is still active So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame So I set free my cousin, chaotic for my mothers pain I hope Hykeem made you proud, 'cause you ain't die in vain So I set free the power of Whitney, may she heal us all So I set free our children, may good karma keep them with God So I set free the hearts filled with hatred, keep our bodies sacred As I set free all you abusers, this is transformation I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Ooh, I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself You did it, I'm proud of you You broke a generational curse Say "Thank you, dad" Thank you daddy, thank you mommy, thank you brother Mr. Morale Before I go in fast asleep, love me for me I bare my soul and now we're free